Sometimes I wonder why crazy shit happens to me like maybe I deserve it. Maybe I did something before and I’m being punished for it. I really do try to be a good person and make everyone happy. Maybe that’s the problem. Trying to make everyone else happy. If I had not been trying to make someone else happy maybe none of this would’ve happened. I should just be more conscious of what I do and think about how it will affect me in the future. But nobody does that. We act on instinct and think about consequences later. I hope my bad decision doesn’t hinder me . I hope it is just a learning experience that I will someday look back on and be able to help someone else through.